Wednesday, August 7, 2019

Being with Alison

I was almost her
Before the bony fingers 
Of time
Began to tug my face
Like putty, sinkening 
Under his merciless groping 
Pinching and plying my skin into
Mean, furrowed clefts 


She’s beautiful 
And when she laughs
Her hair lifts off her breasts 
Her eyes search for the vulnerable 
And the yearning.
We suffer while   
She occupies the space where we all breathe 


I feel myself disappear.
I examine with lumbering dread 
My hands 
As they evaporate 
My legs that blur into a vapy fog
The contours of my face soften into obscurity 
My mind is a flurry 
Of distress 


And in the wedge of space 
I still possess 
I perch on my haunches,
A vulture, 
Brimming with despair 
She is my torment 

And I am a creature of remorse. 

Monday, July 6, 2015

The Road You're On


You don’t have the money to feed your kids  
And you worry all the time  
About how you will afford the gas to get to work each day  
The backyard needs mowing  
And the carpets are spotted in filmy grays and browns  
Legos beating up the bottom of your feet  
And toys you didn’t realize were around anymore  
Plodding in clustered corners  
Like forgotten weeds  
While you struggle vehemently  
With your insides  
Wondering if anyone can love you  
Really love you  
Because the apocalypse of age  
Looms recklessly closer  
And your veneer of confidence  
Tired and beaten  
Verges on utter collapse.
You thought maybe he loved you  
So you gave and gave  
Until you were handing out offerings  
From your internal cesspool,  
Still giving, nonetheless.  
He doesn’t love you after all, does he?  
And slipped away in the dead of night  
With all your cash  
And your last stick of gum  
That you needed  
Because you are all out of toothpaste  
And don’t get paid for another  
Week.      
You don’t give your love away for free  
Anymore and now your heart darkens  
Just a tiny bit more...  
And you’ll never get over this one,  
You know that,  
Because you gave him everything  

And now you have nothing left.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Scissors, please

I ache for freedom.
For that cold, metal key
Just the right combination,
Just the right fee…
I want my soul free
From your malevolent strings
I’ve been gripping for life on
You’re severed, stripped wings
Spiraling quickly
Into your chemical sea. 

Who can love an empty vessel?
Who swims those venomous seas? 
I labored in your death camp
Let you strip my dignity
Let your perch upon my shoulder

In stoic sovereignty.  

Monday, June 29, 2015

The Family Meeting

Your eyes, pleasantly cloudy,
Idly indifferent
When the case worker
Brings the child into the room.
You pull out your phone
Browse through the latest
Slander on Facebook
While your child
Lays placidly
In a lively pink car seat,
Oblivious to your estrangement.    
We all watch you from our seats
And with impeccable determination
Refuse to criticize

What we don’t understand.