Last paper

I am going to finish this semester?  Who would have thought.  I only thought about dropping 120 times.  I hope to write a kickass paper and life will be beautiful for three weeks.  I can handle one more semester. 
I am going to write a paper on Shakespeare's love/hate relationship with the dark.  I am sure it will be underwhelming.  However, I am writing for one of my favorite professors of all time and perhaps that will inspire me to work harder. 
Kids go to bed. 
Time to work. 

W A R N I N G

If you read my blog, do not write to me about it.  I have no interest in discussing what I write here with anyone.  If you do write me, do not expect me to write you back and do not expect me to be pleased.  I prefer that particular someone who does this not read my blog any longer as you have taken the joy out of it for me and made it into a task to be audited and conservative.  That is not my intention. 
The year 2011 approaches and with it will come a new and better life.  I am no longer the victim of my fate.  After my final tomorrow, it's time to get back up on the blog wagon and write more.  Much to be said.  Much has happened. 
Now time to sleep. 

Before the Spanish Test

I have to get this out before I can study.  I just feel, and do as a general rule lately, confused and angry.  I have been through so much this last year.  In some ways things are better.  In others, it's the same long checklist that comprises my life.  Just now Adam and I got into another fight.  We suffered one last night over his inability to spend the night here.  Now he screamed at me for God only knows what.  I feel tired and sapped.  I have finals and so often my mind strays from where it should be.  I need to focus and how can I focus when all this chaos rules the events of my day. 
I no longer know what to do with my life.  It was all figured out a scant year ago.  Now I flounder in discontent.  I often have episodes of deep depression and melancholy.
I should not be with him.  I run the risk of another few years of misery.