It Got Worse?

And to think....I was seriously upset and downsodden in those last posts?  It has gotten so much wose than all of that.  To re read it (something I swore not to do, and now I know why) is devastating.  Six weeks ago he ran down the sidewalk with the baby and I have seen Max only twice since then.  We are battling in court....terrible things are being said....Glenna and I can barely tolerate each other...Adam is a ruthless, violent lair and I saw all of this long ago.  I was utterly blinded for whatever reason and am not wholly unattached from that, even now.  I was supposed to see Max this weekend and they denied me.  They are lowe class and it is clear as sunlight now. 

I have to get things done.  The kids start school tomorrow.  I have spent so much money on haircuts, school supplies, clothes....but I miss my son so very bad.  I miss him and my heart hurts like mad. 

I will try and get everything together.  I am working hard to get things together for the kids and the home and all of it.  Just together.  Once that has been accomplished, things will improve.